I think it is due time that I make a new theme/design for the website and get my content going! I’m thinking a lime green, dark grey and blue theme. Mmmmhmm. And as I promised a video of my newborn baby girl, Addison Renee hanging out with mommy and daddy.

Since i’ve had Addison I haven’t been doing so well nursing her. It has been a very difficult task lately getting her to latch on and I feel less of a mother that she keeps rejecting my breasts. I’ve been very emotional lately and I hate having to bottle feed her formula! I bought a manual breast pump and have been slowly feeding her my breast milk from a bottle since it seems like everything that I do doesn’t work, and I don’t want her to starve. She needs to gain back the 7LBS she has lost since the hospital in about 10 days and I just don’t see it happening with the way things are going. I’m really worried about her weight and health.

Other than that, having engorged breasts really sucks! It is more painful “to me” than having cramps. It’s like having constant pressure on your chest and the only way to relieve it is to have baby suckle or use a pump. One thing i’ve realized since my milk came in yesterday, I always thought milk would be white, like cows milk, but its actually a yellowish color. Kind of strange. And it’s kind of sticky. I’m so glad that I bought some nursing pads, because my ta-ta’s have been leaking like you wouldn’t believe!

Okay, enough about boobies for a second.

I cannot wait to go back to work. Laying around in the house all day all by my lonesome is no fun. No one to talk to, except for my daughter, but she doesn’t talk back She loooooves to be bounced! It’s so adorable and she’s been grinning lately at all of us. My heart just breaks everytime she cries though. I don’t like seeing her unhappy. I just hope that i’m being the best mom I can possibly be. I never want anything to happen to her.

On one more note, finally buying the Liche King for World of War Craft! Waaahoo! I’m at level 54 1/2 and at level 55 I need the Liche King to become a death knight! Whoot! Addison has the biggest nerd parents ever, that’s for sure.

I believe that’s all for tonight. I have taco bell coming on the way, so i’m going to get off here and clean up for foody time!

I finally went into labor around 10pm on saturday night the 6th! I was in labor for a grand total of 24 & 1/2 hours, and pushed Addison out within 10 pushes last hour. If you’d like to see all the pictures I have taken, go here.

She was born 7LBS 15OZ on Sunday February 7th 2010, with a length of 20In. She is beautifully healthy and definitely a very good baby. She has rarely fussed over the past few days in the hospital, and when she got home easily adjusted to her new surroundings. She has a really unique hair color, dirty blonde with platinum like highlights in it, gorgeous blue eyes like her mommy, hopefully they stay blue!!! She loves to suck on fingers…alot. Her favorite position to lay in is belly down on mommys chest. I’m so glad we got the binkies we did, because she absolutely loves her binky, and usually fusses to get it, which Evan and I have learned to keep on hand as much as possible.

I will write up my birth story later. For now, i’m extremely exhausted and would love to get some rest now that i’m actually home in a comfortable bed, with good food (hospital food is aweful!!!) and all the nessesities I need and don’t have to ask for. Good night guys

I’m one day from being officially 41 weeks pregnant. I’m really upset about the idea of an induction. I did some reading about it, and Pitocin isn’t good for the baby. Ahhh so the motherly protection kicks in like mom said it would when I had a child of my own. Thanks mom.

I’ve been in the worst pain lately. I can’t hardly walk to go to the store, it hurts so much to roll over onto either side of my body in the middle of the night to get comfortable. I feel like there is a 100LBS weighing me down, which is a 8LB baby and 21 extra LBS of bodily fluids and tissue. Gross. Evan and I went to Walmart the other evening and bought some Dr. Suess books. They were my favorite books when I was little . I also saw some 3$ Golden Books sitting on a side shelf that I really want to go back and get once Addison comes into the world.

I’ve been wondering this lately. What does breast feeding feel like after the pain is gone. I feel kind of awkward thinking about it. I’d definitely feel kind of awkward doing it in front of my parents at work when I do go back. When Addison becomes a little older I have no idea what i’m going to do as far as finding someone to watch her. I absolutely DO-NOT trust baby sitters. There are so many weird, strange, un-reliable people in this world and it’s hard to tell who you can really trust these days anymore. Gives me the creeps!

I fixed the comment system. I noticed after 3 comments, my comment boxes hide themselves behind my div layers. Yah, so they’re fixed now . I haven’t been working on content because I haven’t been feeling too good, and i’ve been playing ALOT of World of War Craft. Yup yup. If you play the game or have played, i’m into the farming of goods and re-selling right now. I want goooooold!

That’s it for now.

Still no baby, but wait! I went in for my visit again today with the Doctor. She examined me and said I still haven’t dialated past 2cm, and gave me several options to choose from to have baby. #1 being that she exam and strip out the rest of my mucus plug to “jump start” contractions, #2 I could have an induction done on thursday, or #3 I could wait one more week and see if she comes. I decided if my baby isn’t ready to come out, i’m not going to rush her. I chose #3. If she doesn’t come by this coming sunday, I will be getting induced Monday. Whoot whoot! Either way, i’m having my baby girl this week!

Addison’s head is riiiiight near my cervix, and every time she moves on it, it hurts like a bitch! They best way I can describe the pain, is like chewing on tin-foil. It’s that shiver kinda pain you get just thinking about it too! *shivers*

I think that’s about it. Everyone and their mother is harrassing me about when baby is going to be here. Well, soon enough I may even work on a new design for the site a bit too. Or draw.