I’m one day from being officially 41 weeks pregnant. I’m really upset about the idea of an induction. I did some reading about it, and Pitocin isn’t good for the baby. Ahhh so the motherly protection kicks in like mom said it would when I had a child of my own. Thanks mom.

I’ve been in the worst pain lately. I can’t hardly walk to go to the store, it hurts so much to roll over onto either side of my body in the middle of the night to get comfortable. I feel like there is a 100LBS weighing me down, which is a 8LB baby and 21 extra LBS of bodily fluids and tissue. Gross. Evan and I went to Walmart the other evening and bought some Dr. Suess books. They were my favorite books when I was little . I also saw some 3$ Golden Books sitting on a side shelf that I really want to go back and get once Addison comes into the world.

I’ve been wondering this lately. What does breast feeding feel like after the pain is gone. I feel kind of awkward thinking about it. I’d definitely feel kind of awkward doing it in front of my parents at work when I do go back. When Addison becomes a little older I have no idea what i’m going to do as far as finding someone to watch her. I absolutely DO-NOT trust baby sitters. There are so many weird, strange, un-reliable people in this world and it’s hard to tell who you can really trust these days anymore. Gives me the creeps!

I fixed the comment system. I noticed after 3 comments, my comment boxes hide themselves behind my div layers. Yah, so they’re fixed now . I haven’t been working on content because I haven’t been feeling too good, and i’ve been playing ALOT of World of War Craft. Yup yup. If you play the game or have played, i’m into the farming of goods and re-selling right now. I want goooooold!

That’s it for now.

Still no baby, but wait! I went in for my visit again today with the Doctor. She examined me and said I still haven’t dialated past 2cm, and gave me several options to choose from to have baby. #1 being that she exam and strip out the rest of my mucus plug to “jump start” contractions, #2 I could have an induction done on thursday, or #3 I could wait one more week and see if she comes. I decided if my baby isn’t ready to come out, i’m not going to rush her. I chose #3. If she doesn’t come by this coming sunday, I will be getting induced Monday. Whoot whoot! Either way, i’m having my baby girl this week!

Addison’s head is riiiiight near my cervix, and every time she moves on it, it hurts like a bitch! They best way I can describe the pain, is like chewing on tin-foil. It’s that shiver kinda pain you get just thinking about it too! *shivers*

I think that’s about it. Everyone and their mother is harrassing me about when baby is going to be here. Well, soon enough I may even work on a new design for the site a bit too. Or draw.

When a Doctor Says “You’re going to feel a little pressure”, it usually means “Your going to feel some pain.” Now, how come they don’t actually tell you that? I’d rather a doctor be straight up front with me, so that I don’t get the surprise “WTH! That fricken hurts!” and then accidentally kick the doctors teeth in. They aren’t making anything better by being liars!

I’m scheduled for an appointment today for a 4d ultrasound. My last appointment my doctor said that my amniotic fluid feels to be low, and she wants to check some measurements on 4d to make sure that the baby is growing, because she still “seems” a little small. Well doc, I hate to tell you, but i’m also a very petite person. There is only so much room that a baby can grow in my womb. Besides, her heartbeart is healthy, she is moving around just fine, i’m in utter pain from pelvic pressure, and she is due in just 3 days! I’d say she’s fine.

Oh yeah, it’s 7:30am! Does that tell you that I cannot sleep!? I’ve been tossing and turning for the past month. Every week gets worse. I’m getting super excited to meet my little girl! I got another gift from Lisa a couple days ago. She made a reversable baby bag for us. It’s cute. Though I wish I had one that zippered, because I lose alot of things in bags that don’t close.

I’ve been playing alot of World of WarCraft lately. I’m now level 44! Yay! That’s pretty much all I can do as of lately. I can’t walk. It hurts too much. It feels as if my pelvis has done 1000 crunches inside and hasn’t healed.

Did I tell ya’ll, if Addison doesn’t come on the 30th, i’m requesting today that I be induced on the 31st of this month. I think it’s about time she meet the world. I’ve given her plenty of time to grow and prepare herself

I’m now officially 24 years old, and about to have a baby hopefully in less than a week! Contractions are continuing to wake me up in the middle of the morning, but nothing that says i’m going to have her. Haven’t had the “blooooody show” or lost my mucus plug (doesn’t that just sound wonderful!?). I’m not even sure if you have to have those before you go into labor. I’ve read some stories where neither of them happened until labor began. Off that pregnancy stuff for now.

I had a wonderful birthday yesterday. Evan took me to Chili’s where we had the most polite and kind server i’ve ever had there. Or maybe it was because I was in such a great mood and was super nice to her and she responded back in the same manner. Who knows. The meal was excellent. I had the triple dippers, including the mini burgers, spinach and artichoke dip with chips, and their delicious chicken crispers with honey mustard sauce. Mmmmmmmm

We then headed to Fred Meyers, where I searched for English Lavendar Body Wash and Shampoo. They didn’t have any. And Lavendar Lilac and Fresia DO_NOT count! They don’t smell the same. Trust me, I checked. I was a little disappointed So i’ll continue to use my English Lavendar Bubble Bath by Village Natures Bath Shoppe. Sooooooooooo good. I think i’m literally addicted to the scent of their Lavendar Milk Bath. I take a bath every night in it. Seriously, every night. And I have to say “Mmmmmm” everytime I get a whiff of it. Hahaha. It could be because i’m pregnant that i’m soooo obsessed with that scent. We shall see.

Evan did the funniest thing today. We went to Carrs (aka Safeway in the lower 48), and picked out 8 donuts and tossed them into a donut box at the bakery section. After leaving Carrs, a little down the road I heard a chunk of something come off my car, so I looked back to see what had fallen off and it was our box of donuts flying in the wind, all over the street! Evan had left them on the hood of the car. I laughed my ass off, called my parents, told them, they laughed their asses off, then I took him to the pizzaria (our family owned business) where we made fun of him And I, of course, made him go back into Carrs and get me my damn donuts! He is so forgetful sometimes. Sometimes its frustrating, and other times it’s just a damn good laugh.

I’ve been starting to have sharp contractions the past two days. They don’t get worse or frequent, but they hurt! I’m getting a cramp like contraction right now :S I cannot wait to meet my little girl in less than a week. I’m almost sure i’m going to have her sometime this week. I’m so freaked out! I hate hospitals! I’ve been reading up on how labor works and what is most likely to come, and i’m not liking the idea. I swear if anyone brings so much as a blade to my vagina i’m going to be breaking some skulls.

My mom just called me a little bit ago to tell me she is making Taco Salad for dinner! I haven’t had that in so damn long. If you don’t know what it is, its pretty much a taco, but not in a shell. It’s lettuce, diced tomatoe, mild or hot salsa, taco chip crumbles and cheddar on top of ground beef. Sooooo delicious! I can’t wait.

Evan has been having some strange hours at work lately. He’s been working 2pm-11pm at night. I don’t like it one bit. It makes the day seem so much longer when he’s not here. They need to put him back on day shift. Seriously!

I still haven’t decided what I want to do for my birthday in two days. I’m much too pregnant to go clubbin for drinks and I don’t feel like walking around anywhere at all! Says the bowling ball lodged in my pelvic area. Maybe i’ll just have Evan give me a rub down with lotion. Ahhhh I do love his massages. I get one almost every night. In fact, I think i’ll persuade him tonight. Hehehe